Tuesday, April 29, 2008

A 'Borrowed' Bucket List

Yes, I like to copycat. So, sue me.

You know I'm too busy to blog.
(then i wonder, what am I doing now?)

I'm still too busy, but it's more like, I'm sick of working right now.
(i'm a crappy employee)

But but but... actually, I should give myself MORE credit becuz I have tolerated crap at work for 1yr 8mths. And somehow, it's getting harder & harder to face my work. Especially with my low pay.
(but I have to remember that my manager has helped me to get more increment than others)

I knowwwwwwwww... but the problem is, there are other ppl in the company who are doing much lesser work for higher pay.
(that's becuz they work smart and I work hard)

And besides, I got more increment, but I also gotten twice the workload.
(stop whining, I'm such a weakling)

No, I'm not! If I was a weakling, I would have resigned long time back!
(just blame it on my NO determination)

It's NOT that I don't have any determination, ok. But it's becuz of all the improper mgmt planning & nothing being done with workflow & its processes lor. Imagine you have to clear the same shit everyday of your life when actually something could have been done to improve things.
(since like that, then next time I'm just going to do things on my own time own schedule)

Cannot lahhhhh. As long as I'm working here, I have to give 100%.
(yeah right)

Ok. At least 80% on some days. Nobody can come to work a hundred percent EVERYDAY wat.
(sounds reasonable)

It IS reasonable lor.


And THAT is why I need a Bucket List too (but too lazy to come up with one right now).

I think from the rate I'm going, I might be either:

a) going crazy soon from arguing with myself everyday
b) die early from stress-related illnesses

Anyhow, I read Annur's blog and I saw she has this post on her Bucket List (see Annur, I still want to know what's going on in your life).

HOWEVER, I'm not going to blog about how I want my Bucket List exactly like hers.

I actually want to share something funny about what I thought about when I was reading her blog post. I know, i'm so weird but i can't help it. Sometimes, strange thoughts just come to my mind unexpectedly too.

ok ok... so here is Annur's bucket list. And some of my immediate thoughts in red as I was reading it:

1. bungee jumping
2. publish poems (chiem, sia)
3. attempt public speaking
4. be alone in life and be complacent being alone
5. spend a week with my best friend on a holiday trip
6. compose a song
7. win an award (seriously?? what kind of award? sounds a bit ' Ms Universe')
8. embrace the world (...*paused a little here*... wondering what it meant by embrace the world.. ok, moving on)
9. dance in the middle of the busiest road to my own song (shit, sometimes I thought of doing that too)
10. be in two places at one time (hmm... Heroes dun have anybody who has this power yet)
11. support a child to pursue studies in either local or overseas school (i rather keep the money & spend on the holiday in point 5)
12. set up my fundraiser to buy books for kids all over (awwww... so SWEET! actually i thought about setting up my own children's home if i was filthy rich)
13. be with a critically sick patient till their last breath (wah)
14. forge a friendship with an Aids victim/carrier/patient (... *a reluctant HUH*)
15. scream at the top of my lungs in an isolate place (hahaha... so some reason, this is funny to me becuz I can imagine Annur screaming in a cartoon way)
16. migrate to Medina (where is Medina??)

... and then I read further down her blog post... and she wrote this:

"I should keep this bucket list. Maybe I would achieve all of them. Maybe I won't. If I pass on without finishing the list, I just hope someday I do have someone I can trust my life with to ask a huge favour from that individual to help me finish the list for me. Maybe I should put that in the list, 17. to know someone I can trust my life with."

... ... ... you dun see anything funny???

Ok. How about I highlight the funny part?

"I should keep this bucket list. Maybe I would achieve all of them. Maybe I won't. If I pass on without finishing the list, I just hope someday I do have someone I can trust my life with to ask a huge favour from that individual to help me finish the list for me. Maybe I should put that in the list, 17. to know someone I can trust my life with."

... still nothing funny meh???

Ok. Then maybe it's just me. First, let me explain that as I read her Bucket List, I was imagining that the Bucket List was mine. So when I read the words (which I highlighted in yellow), this thought suddenly stuck me,

wahhhh... I confirm won't do point 14.
Then before I die, I go to my most favourite person and say " eh, do point 14 for me".
I think the person will kick me in the head and ask me go and die faster.
I die already nevermind, still want to make my fav person get the risk of AIDS.

Ok. Let me explain myself further.

I am NOT making fun of Annur.

I believe she has the super pure intention of doing 1 extremely noble deed in her life.

But for me, I don't think... ... wait... ... I CONFIRM GUARANTEE, PLUS CHOP that coming in contact with an AIDS patient is NOWHERE on my list.

Maybe I'm just not as noble as Annur.

But this is me.

Safety Always First (and I read this huge Safety Always First signboard at my workplace everyday, but dunno why still got ppl get injured so often, but personally, I got brainwashed & this is now my life's motto).

I don't mind donating to AIDS patients in some kind of fundraiser thingy. But... to come in contact with them? errrrrrrrr... PASS!

eh wait... Annur said, "forge a friendship with an Aids victim/carrier/patient"... ... but she didn't say HOW. So means that I can still be penpals with an AIDS patient.

SIBEY GOOD IDEA, MAN!!! Ok, I can do point 14 too.

BUT... on the condition that the AIDS patient is an innocent victim. For example, if a newborn got infected by his promiscuous mother.

And if the AIDS patient got AIDS due to fucking around / getting sex from hookers / etc, then I will personally make them die faster, so that the world will be a better place and maybe then, I can do point 8.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Taking Care of Your Baby

I was sent this some time back and I thought it was damn funny, so I'll just share it with you.

(for some reason, i think the baby looks damn happy to be carried from the head...)

(look at the baby's face... he looks DAMN cross lor!
maybe becuz his cute chubby cheeks are resting on the chess table...)

(is it me... or is that baby actually doing a 'thumbs up' sign to the XXX alcohol??)

(i am sure this is actually happening to some babies!!!
maybe this is how some ppl got big nostrils...)

(this is my favourite!!!
the look on the baby's smiling face is DAMN cute.
this is also how Julia Roberts got her big wide smile... ladies & gentlemen, the mystery is solved...)

(they are probably bonding over the XXX alcohol... see how 'high' the mother is...)

(and actually TV is not a bad idea!!! I don't think letting babies watch tv is a bad idea... unless the movie is Dumb & Dumber... or Hannibal... or Fear Factor...)

(this is damn gross... i wonder who drew this...
the father looks so horny while doing that...)

That's all folks.

Hopefully this will make up for lost blog time in the past few months.


Monday, April 14, 2008

Long Time No Blog, so Here's A Quick Update

I believe nobody is even checking in on my blog anymore. But... JUST IN CASE anyone still reads it, I'll still blog for now. Mainly, I just need to rant about all that has happened to me these past few months.

It has been a very busy 2008 for me.

So much rubbish to do, so much crap to take & so many idiots to deal with.

Work has been overloading due to the fact that ppl can't keep track of their work properly. They don't follow-up on their own work. The worst thing is that ppl seem to do first and create a whole bunch of stupid problems, then they think about how to solve problems in a mad rush. The best part is they get YOU to clear the mess, while they sit around and use their mouths to stress you out.

It's like the same concept as maxing out your credit limit and when the bill comes, then you start to 'uh oh now what', then these ppl start to call YOU and borrow money from YOU to pay off their debts.

Sometimes, I really feel that I have had ENOUGH of this stupid planning... ... oh sorry, it's not even call PLANNING, becuz if it is, then things will not be so disorganized at work. Some guy told us that he wanted us to 'fly' with him at work becuz he's always on the go in a fast pace, so we should speed up our work. I say, it is more like flapping your arms wildly and running around aimlessly until you keep hitting a brick wall over and over again.

I don't know why I'm still here. Probably when one stays too long in a bad situation, you tend to subconsciously LIKE the abuse. Or it is probably due to the fact that I hate giving up on tough situations becuz it makes me look weak and might seem that I'm running away when the going gets rough. But then again, how much is enough? I think I'll give this another chance. The whole of 2008. After that, I'll see how much my efforts are appreciated by the company. If all my hard work is for nothing, then I guess it's time for me to look for greener pastures... NEARER to home.

Then there was a situation where somebody actually took my metal fork without asking for permission. And then stuck it into a cabinet to fix it like my fork was a screwdriver. I threw that fork away. Once it has been abused in some dirty cabinet, I could never look at my eating utensil the same way again.

My brother's birthday is this Saturday. I haven't gotten him anything. Have to discuss this with Gina Lau.

Everything is going okay with me & my boyfriend. He's so funny.

I miss the people I used to hang out with. It used to be fun and carefree. All those nonsense joking around and running about.

I should go to the gym soon. Or swimming. But lonely to go alone + lazy + nobody to motivate me to go.

More updates next time.

Oh shit, I forgot to post up pictures for the Bangkok trip.

Ok. Next time.