A 'Borrowed' Bucket List

Yes, I like to copycat. So, sue me.


You know I'm too busy to blog.
(then i wonder, what am I doing now?)

I'm still too busy, but it's more like, I'm sick of working right now.
(i'm a crappy employee)

But but but... actually, I should give myself MORE credit becuz I have tolerated crap at work for 1yr 8mths. And somehow, it's getting harder & harder to face my work. Especially with my low pay.
(but I have to remember that my manager has helped me to get more increment than others)

I knowwwwwwwww... but the problem is, there are other ppl in the company who are doing much lesser work for higher pay.
(that's becuz they work smart and I work hard)

And besides, I got more increment, but I also gotten twice the workload.
(stop whining, I'm such a weakling)

No, I'm not! If I was a weakling, I would have resigned long time back!
(just blame it on my NO determination)

It's NOT that I don't have any determination, ok. But it's becuz of all the improper mgmt planning & nothing being done with workflow & its processes lor. Imagine you have to clear the same shit everyday of your life when actually something could have been done to improve things.
(since like that, then next time I'm just going to do things on my own time own schedule)

Cannot lahhhhh. As long as I'm working here, I have to give 100%.
(yeah right)

Ok. At least 80% on some days. Nobody can come to work a hundred percent EVERYDAY wat.
(sounds reasonable)

It IS reasonable lor.

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And THAT is why I need a Bucket List too (but too lazy to come up with one right now).

I think from the rate I'm going, I might be either:

a) going crazy soon from arguing with myself everyday
b) die early from stress-related illnesses


Anyhow, I read Annur's blog and I saw she has this post on her Bucket List (see Annur, I still want to know what's going on in your life).

HOWEVER, I'm not going to blog about how I want my Bucket List exactly like hers.

I actually want to share something funny about what I thought about when I was reading her blog post. I know, i'm so weird but i can't help it. Sometimes, strange thoughts just come to my mind unexpectedly too.

ok ok... so here is Annur's bucket list. And some of my immediate thoughts in red as I was reading it:

1. bungee jumping
2. publish poems (chiem, sia)
3. attempt public speaking
4. be alone in life and be complacent being alone
5. spend a week with my best friend on a holiday trip
6. compose a song
7. win an award (seriously?? what kind of award? sounds a bit ' Ms Universe')
8. embrace the world (...*paused a little here*... wondering what it meant by embrace the world.. ok, moving on)
9. dance in the middle of the busiest road to my own song (shit, sometimes I thought of doing that too)
10. be in two places at one time (hmm... Heroes dun have anybody who has this power yet)
11. support a child to pursue studies in either local or overseas school (i rather keep the money & spend on the holiday in point 5)
12. set up my fundraiser to buy books for kids all over (awwww... so SWEET! actually i thought about setting up my own children's home if i was filthy rich)
13. be with a critically sick patient till their last breath (wah)
14. forge a friendship with an Aids victim/carrier/patient (... *a reluctant HUH*)
15. scream at the top of my lungs in an isolate place (hahaha... so some reason, this is funny to me becuz I can imagine Annur screaming in a cartoon way)
16. migrate to Medina (where is Medina??)



... and then I read further down her blog post... and she wrote this:

"I should keep this bucket list. Maybe I would achieve all of them. Maybe I won't. If I pass on without finishing the list, I just hope someday I do have someone I can trust my life with to ask a huge favour from that individual to help me finish the list for me. Maybe I should put that in the list, 17. to know someone I can trust my life with."

... ... ... you dun see anything funny???

Ok. How about I highlight the funny part?

"I should keep this bucket list. Maybe I would achieve all of them. Maybe I won't. If I pass on without finishing the list, I just hope someday I do have someone I can trust my life with to ask a huge favour from that individual to help me finish the list for me. Maybe I should put that in the list, 17. to know someone I can trust my life with."

... still nothing funny meh???

Ok. Then maybe it's just me. First, let me explain that as I read her Bucket List, I was imagining that the Bucket List was mine. So when I read the words (which I highlighted in yellow), this thought suddenly stuck me,

wahhhh... I confirm won't do point 14.

Then before I die, I go to my most favourite person and say " eh, do point 14 for me".

I think the person will kick me in the head and ask me go and die faster.

I die already nevermind, still want to make my fav person get the risk of AIDS.

Ok. Let me explain myself further.

I am NOT making fun of Annur.

I believe she has the super pure intention of doing 1 extremely noble deed in her life.

But for me, I don't think... ... wait... ... I CONFIRM GUARANTEE, PLUS CHOP that coming in contact with an AIDS patient is NOWHERE on my list.

Maybe I'm just not as noble as Annur.

But this is me.

Safety Always First (and I read this huge Safety Always First signboard at my workplace everyday, but dunno why still got ppl get injured so often, but personally, I got brainwashed & this is now my life's motto).


I don't mind donating to AIDS patients in some kind of fundraiser thingy. But... to come in contact with them? errrrrrrrr... PASS!

eh wait... Annur said, "forge a friendship with an Aids victim/carrier/patient"... ... but she didn't say HOW. So means that I can still be penpals with an AIDS patient.

SIBEY GOOD IDEA, MAN!!! Ok, I can do point 14 too.

BUT... on the condition that the AIDS patient is an innocent victim. For example, if a newborn got infected by his promiscuous mother.

And if the AIDS patient got AIDS due to fucking around / getting sex from hookers / etc, then I will personally make them die faster, so that the world will be a better place and maybe then, I can do point 8.